Heyyy yawl… So I took days off from journaling, talking, writing… cuz sometimes you just need to be quiet and observe… how shitty things going down in your life lol. Thankfully I had a therapy session that was right on time, to help me navigate through how my mind works. The new life tool I received is to be intentional with my positive outlook on situations that’s out of my control. All I can do genuine with my intentions to soften the thought of me spiraling out of control because I can’t…control.

The past few weeks I have been actually feeling great. I’ve been focused, shedding, blah blah. I randomly came across a famous quote, I’ve heard many times throughout my life (my mother actually gave me book marker with this quote on it, I still have that boy too lol)

 “God grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change, courage to change the things I can, and wisdom to know the difference.” – Reinhold Niebuhr, theologian-philosopher.

IIIIIIIIIIII cannot accept the things I can’t change. I fight with that daily…because, what you mean, it can’t go my way?? It definitely CAN and imma make a way, or die trying!
And that’s always been my issue lol. I cannot change shit beyond my control. I cannot change what has happened. As I sit and recollect my thoughts,

Which brings me to say this… remember, the stages aren’t linear…and you can be fully in one stage but still experiencing the emotions of another… I’ve been feeling the emotions of depression but I haven’t been it. It’s crazy.

But I have been have “effects” of anxiety/depression. I’ll drop that off in a video later.

Toodles…