HAPPY HEAVENLY BIRTHDAY TO THE TWINS!

1/17/24... The day that broke me but blessed me. I've been anticipating on how I was going to feel today... honestly, I can thank God I am not in despair this time around. Because grief can swallow your whole face, sliding down your body and you'll feel like there's nothing you can do, but just…

Again, Grief is not linear…

Meaning, you do not go through the stages in "chronological order." Denial, anger, bargaining, depression & acceptance can and WILL whoop yo tail no matter how slow or quick you received the news. Crazy because this passed Saturday, August 30th was "National Grief Awareness Day." I had a whole lil entry I was going to…

UPDATE…

Hey yawl! So much has happened since the last time I WROTE. I've done a few videos here and there and I thought....this time...let me write it out, I haven't done that in a while. It's actually been a minute...Mother's Day to be exact. I've just...been riding the waves of emotions...identifying them. Wondering what it…

Acceptance 2.0

During my therapy session last week, I came to the realization that..I have reached the Acceptance stage of Grief with the Girls. Not a day goes by I don’t think of them. I talk to them, I pray with them.. I’ve accepted that: They were a beautiful tragedy..a blessing in disguise. They TAUGHT me…I’m becoming…

Do You Ever Feel like a failure?

Now failure isn't a stage of grief, but it wallows around the same feelings of it. Because you feel like dang...I couldn't even do that!FOR ME, my "failure" is bouncing between anger and bargaining at this point. Like, I'm tired of bargaining...replaying certain shit...thinking of different ways things could've went about differently. And that's insanity...because…